Those who are dead, are not dead they're just living in your head

I looked up to the empty night skies asking the lord to take this all away from me, that kind of emptiness I see and the uncertainty that is stirling in my life, a moment everything is good and pleasant the next murphy's law kick in.

I feel like caving in to myself but things are almost too good for me now, I don't wanna let the fear take the wheel and steer but I am just so scare of the possibility of a greater trouble.

I owe it to myself and the very people who care for me, I really do but right now maybe I should just learn to get back up on my feet.

Lord, will I ever have a chance to get out of this vicious cycle that my parents and grandparents have pave for me?

I need to be strong... Goodnight!