Was awaken by my father tonight, Talked about business and development of this shop. Sleepiness kicks in on and on like a old siren light flashing in my head luring me back to my bed. I cannot remember a time when I don't have to take on this kind of responsibility, something like a sweet childhood memory or something? It tiring? I mean, how many kids actually go around telling the parents how they should be running their career? I mean, there must be some but Its just something I have to live with and I have no hard feelings or whatsoever.

When I was standing there talking to my dad, a sudden gush of wind rushed in to the living room and there I was sitting there thinking of all the places I'd rather be in than here in the small room? HA. But I'll understand what all these space and time is for?

I was praying last night over at Janan's house. To be honest, its the first time I ever feel this lonely? I have great things in life, friends, family, sufficient cash and car(though its not mine) But there seems to be a hole inside me that keeps sucking all the joy away? I was praying, crying out to the lord if you must know. But it really seems to me that God was quiet for that moment. He did not say anything or at least It didn't feel like he wanted to say anything at that moment? But I guess the message is still clear to me, though he did not come to me in that great ray of light from heaven but somehow I know that I should be holding on to him at this very moment?

Well, it can pretty much be sum into this one verse.

1 John 3:1 (:

Goodnightt, Goodnightt, sleep tight tonight...

Counting down the days till I see your face again...