Dear Diary, I can sense that it's gonna be a long, cold couple of weeks ahead of me with exams just right after CNY. Though I am not alone, never. I guess the worries just falls upon me like the unsuspecting rain that comes in the hot afternoon.

My ability to do well,
My time management and all?

I don't know? Maybe I worry a lil too much? Or maybe its just the fear that I will have to walk this one out alone, at least for now? But whatever it is, I know that I am well taken care of and yeah... Guys don't usually say this but yeah?

Joshua's thankful that he has an awesome shoulder to cry on if need be. (:

Anyway, Valentine's day is approaching? HA! ain't that a bitch? A day in the year when all the single person there is out there, ask one crucial question: What the hell am I doing here? ALONE? HAHAH!

I got to say, it's not easy swallowing the fact that you'd be spending it alone? Or rather, you won't have to? If you're celebrating Chinese New Year of course. You're be drown in all that festive fun, begging for Ang Baos, you're annoying cousins that you see every other CNY? and that Uncle or Aunt of yours that says the same thing over and over again as if there was a script written for all the Uncles and Aunt all over Singapore? Popular "Scripted questions" such as:

"Wah So tall Liao arh?!"
"Wah So short still?"
"Why Haven't married?!"
"When you bringing us a Boy/GirlFriend for visitation"
"You were so cute when you were young... Why now so...(Fill in the blanks)"

Last but not least... My personal favourite!
"You look just like your grandparents"

I mean, CNY "theoretically" suppose to be a great family gathering that everyone comes together for once not talking about problems in the family. Well I suppose It has become a occasion for us to BS our way through all that Bahkwa and Pineapple tarts.

But well, who am I to complain right? I still got my angbaos and family members intact in my life(: and plus, I am guessing that CNY is my dad's favorite holiday of he year? Never seen him so happy and hopeful except for Chinese New year? And When I talk to him about Business? HAHA!

ANyway, Wanted to blog something here But I suppose I lost my train of thoughts? Maybe because its 3 in the morning? Or maybe what I wanted to say deserve to be written down in a form of a letter sent out to the skies. But whatever it is, I know that I have a song that I am singing... Smile!

think of me tonight
when everyone leaves and you're alone,
Think of me tonight,
I'm counting the days until you come home...


Goodnightt, Goodnightt!