Today, pretty much a pleasant day. Woke up at 11:48AM to reply a Message, then closed my eye and the next thing I know? I wake up in a 1PM world! And Lucky me, my first class starts at 1PM. Ha!

Class was okay, went in panting like s shag horse with my hair all messed up and all. I could tell from the teacher's eye that he's confused on how to react to this perpetual late comer. I know, I know but honestly I just don't feel the rush in life anymore. I feel like there's so much I am out of control about. Or at least in school? My friend's conflict, my magazine launch. I can't seems to do anything about it?

Honestly, My friends. I don't wanna state names, there are only so much people that I am close to eh? Seriously, I hope you guys read this man. I mean obviously there is something wrong between us? But everyone is trying to act as if everything is okay. I really don't understand what's with the facade? I don't know what to say man, because honestly I have no say because I don't know what's wrong really? But if it helps? Throw away that pride and talk about it less you don't cherish the friendship at all? Yeah... All I wanna feel is for everyone to feel alright? And yeah, Please. Whatever you feel like saying please say it, soon? Because I sort of drag school now because of all of this shit going on? I'm sorry, Its like a kid who's stuck in between his parents passing message all the time as if they don't see each other? Yeah? So yup! Drop that pride, and take a ride.

As for my Magazine, Sucks like sheet. Put it in simple words. My boss refuse to acknowledge my presence. I emailed her and no reply. I really don't know what to do. And to make things worst, I wasn't involve in the process of making it happen. To be short, they have frozen my status. Its not that I don't wanna be a good Chief ED? But I wasn't even consider in for anything? I mean, I could brag about all that I've done for OOPS! But honestly, I got to say. That's life? Sometimes you are Under-appreciate. HAHA! one word: SIAN

SIAN
(see-en)
A wonderfully concise Hokkien adjective which conveys boredom, weariness, frustration and emptiness. The English equivalent would be "ennui".
1. “My job is damn sian, man.”
2. “Wah lau eh, I do A-maths, do until sian oreddy.” - Coxfort Singlish Dictionary


Anyway, Just feel like ranting? Tired, tired, tired! Shall go self-motivate myself to finish my homework now!

Au Revoir"

Misguided Ghost - Paramore

I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back
Don't try to follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See, I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe

We all learn to make mistakes
And run from them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Travelin' endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact, they follow me
And we just go in circles

And now I'm told that this is life
That pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it

Would someone care to classify?
A broken heart and some twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on
And run to them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh, you are not useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Travelin' endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles