Take my hand, I'll always be here for you...(:

I realize many time it is not only about how high your hopes are for the perfect evening or how much you want this to last, maybe sometime you'd forget that you're still pretty much grounded to the earth that you're standing on and you crossed the line between what's nice and what's simply overboard. . .

Well, its not a good feeling definitely, not being able to see or feel the only one that is real around here. Reasons after reasons trying to convince myself to feel okay but I suppose nothing is perfect?

A friend in Starbucks use to look at me trouble over what the heart might feel and She says love it all, love it all, no matter how hard it gets.

I suppose that's the whole point? Bad or worst, love it all? I could perfectly understand what's going on in your head... Maybe things will get better when tomorrow comes? Yup. Sorry.

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Smile - Uncle Kracker

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Ohh you make me smile...

I was seriously sick for a whole two days, and honestly when all my hope for humanity was gone... I felt loved again...

By so many friends and family, anyway just wanna send a shout out for all of them!

When Chuan knew that I was sick, he immediately scolded me for pigging out on Kit Kats during our event together! I had to admit, I had that coming. :P

Then there was Yong, who offered to refill my water bottle when he saw that I was coughing when I woke up from resting in class? And honestly, he's such a awesome friend man, secretly he checks to see if I had money to see a doctor? I mean, that really means alot to me?

Then there was Daddy, who upon heard that I was sick, rushed to the petrol station middle of his shift to buy herbal tea for me and rushed home to see if I'm okay. Well, all I can say that is he's a awesome father and a bad boss but really appreciate it a lot Dad!

Then My Mummy, who bought tons of medicine for me, and cooked herbal tea(the real boiled one) for me! HAHA! Seriously, it smells really good from my room now! totally feel so loved by her, and though she don't drink Green tea(all her children knows that) and she was thirsty and all and because I wanted to drink green tea she compromised and shared a few precious mouthful with me! :P

And a Amazing Woman(Secret) that is rather New in my life that bought me a bottle of Organic! honey for my sore-throat!! Can you believe it?? Though its buy one get one free but honestly I so feel the love! / and though you wanted to bring me the one in your house for me, but its just so cute and sweet that you even think of giving me your share? Hawhaw!

Also, you know. My math teacher just called me and told me that he wanted to give me tuition for my math!! Because I didn't score well for the class today! I mean, how sweet and awesome is that? Now I want to score a A for him man!! Dr Liu Qi Zhang!! Thank God for you!

You know, Its just a small sickness due to overworked on events and articles and school work. But these people in my life with all their small acts of love for me!

Honestly, God... I was seriously beginning to lose hope and I thought I can never see that kind of love and kindness in my life ever but there it is, you proved me wrong and I guess it was you all along, it was you Jesus, all along... without you none of these would happen all at once, I see you love for me now! Thank You Lord! I am forever grateful!

"the other day I was just praying to God and I said, Lord. I can't walk on no more... There's is nothing here for me that I would wanna fight for, and there is nothing here that I can draw love and strength from..."

I guess, you can never doubt the amazing Love of God...

Thanks for keeping me company, in times of sleeplessness and those insomniac nights. Really couldn't have done it without you. Thanks!

Back to work, boy!

Facade

Fake a smile!
Pretend you're fine!
Close my eyes and listen to you cry!

Stop my will
Steal My Strength
Bury My feelings and hide my fear!

This is what it feels like to be normal
This is how we feel like to be normal
Maybe, just maybe I need them to know that what fools they are.

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Then again, I'm not sad or affected at all... My hopes are all with GOD. Just that they are slowly becoming strangers to me... Strangers that I can't really care about. If you will, my Lord return my love for my family to me... thank you. Amen.

Blurry - Puddle of Mudd

Everything’s so blurry, and everyone’s so fake
And everybody’s empty, and everything is so messed up
Preoccupied without you, I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl
you could be my someone you could be my scene
You know that I’ll protect you from all of the obscene
I wonder what you’re doing Imagine where you are
There’s oceans in between us, and that’s not very far

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing, there’s no one left that’s real
So make up your own ending, and let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost with out you, I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl
you could be my someone you could be my scene
You know that I will save you from all of the unclean
I wonder what you’re doin I wonder where you are
There’s oceans in between us but that’s not very far

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me

Oh nobody told me what you thought,
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn,
Told you when to run away
Nobody told you where to hide,
Nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn,
Showed you when to run away

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me

No!
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away...
This pain you gave to me

Slowly, but surely this all is coming to an end. You wondered to yourself a thousand and one time what really went wrong? was it too much that I was asking for? You know deep in your heart that every word you said and every thing you do would be so smooth that maybe someday she'll feel it too, but no. So you come to a breaking point and you said lets forget it...

Anger can always takes its toll on you, look at you. You're growing old so young my brother... Its really sad especially you're walking down the street where my sole once laid its presents on. Look at your smile, I know you wanted badly to feel fine, to feel free again but this brutal chain its holding you back... It may seem hard to summon the strength to forget it all but maybe, somehow, someway this is the only chance that you've got to take for a better dawn.

I can see it all in your eyes, that jaded shadow that looms behind your stronger front. I wish that it can be as simple as On/off switch where you're here today, and gone tomorrow. With this incident, it changes everything that your stood for, your faith, trust, hopes and fear... I wish this isn't so

but sometime, a man's got to wake up to find that he really has no one and that life of his own... is no one else's but his Own...

I hope you see the light, I hope you find that strength and hope that could bring you through tomorrow... Dude,

"Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt..." - Incubus

Lift up my eyes to the heavens and pray that God will give you the strength to dance again my friend... Amen*


Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dyin breath of
this love we've been workin on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
so I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
we pulled to many false alarms

We're goin down
and you can see it too
We're goin down
and you know that we're doomed
my dear
we're slow dancing in a burnin room

I was the one you always dreamed of
you were the one i tried to draw
how dare you say it's nothin to me
baby, you're the only light I ever saw

I made the most of all the sadness
you'd be a bitch because you can
you try to hit me just hurt me
so you leave me feelin dirty cuz you can't understand

We're goin down
and you can see it too
We're goin down
and you know that we're doomed
my dear
we're slow dancing in a burnin room

Go cry about it why don't you
Go cry about it why don't you
Go cry about it why don't you

my dear, we're slow dancin in a burnin room
burnin room, burnin room
don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow

don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow

don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow


Be strong Chuan...

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day... This is a sick cycle carousel"

Let me tell you a story about this three good friends. All of them met one another by accident and by chance they came to me at a very strange time of my life...

When boys become men...
When each broken heart eventually mend...
When one of them is broke...
When insecurities takes place...
When failure was the best way to learn...

They were there for me, I couldn't want anything more than two of them. Wanting nothing in return they gave to me. And I am forever grateful, Thank God... Really do.
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For you to notice... - Dashboard Confessional

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you,
Where every single word I said
Would come out insightful or brave, or smooth, or charming
And you'd want to call me..
And I
Would be there every time
You need me;
I'd be there every time..

But for now,
I'll look
So longingly..
Waiting

For you to want me
For you to need me
For you to notice me


"I may not know the best way out at times, or the right words to say at the right place, but I'm just glad that our day was saved by the beauty of his grace... Thank God for you Miss Stout... I'm so glad that everything is better now, I've learnt so much, I hope you see it too... Waiting for you to notice."

My latest experiment, the Cream pasta with Parmesan Cheese as Base. Complete with Basil , Garlic and black pepper as Flavor. Simple but elegant! Ha!


However, its still bit too tasteless to me" oh wells"

Dear Diary.... Sigh~

Nothing...

Realize - Colbie Caillat

Take time to realize that your warmth is crashing down on in.
Take time to realize that I am on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize,
Oh, oh, I'm on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
Take time to realize this all can pass you by.
Didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other oh.

It's not the same.
No, it's never the same,
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me halfway,
If you would meet me halfway,
It can be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder...

Just realize what I just realized,
If you just realize what I just realized... ooh ooh.
Missed out on each other now.
Missed out on each other now.

Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh.