Christmas has been a really good time for reflections and the process of making resolutions for the new year ahead just makes me wonder if I'll ever keep to any of them. It's amazing, when I think back and somehow it just amazes me how many time I have died this year...

Suddenly, I feel like a man who just came back from a hospital knowing that the worst is over and that somehow he wishes those tired, jaded days would never find their way back to him... Wow! I feel free suddenly, I feel alive and glad that I'm back!

So yeah, This is an entry to mark a end to all my depressing stories about this sad sad year... Yeah! I've learnt so much, from everyone around me and most importantly I learnt that God is always there and I'm not saying this because of the need to be politically polite? But seriously, God. He is someone who has all the freaking answer to all the bad times that I was going through? To be honest without the word from him during good friday(he spoke to me) I wouldn't be at where I am today, Alive.

Yes, In case you didn't know I wanted to die real badly, was contemplating between the fast way out of the slow painful assuring one... I chose neither. But yeah, The Lord gave me a third choice which is just what I needed, to draw strength from him and not let me die or resume everything to normal though thats what I thought I needed. How silly was I eh?

So yeah, there's really nothing more to say about this year, the past is gone and a new book is in the making whatever the ending may be I'll be sure to face the day with open arms and open eyes!

"If I could open my arms,
And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,
I'd bring it to where you are,
Making a lake of the East River and Hudson.
And if I could open my mouth,
Wide enough for a marching band to march out,
They would make your name sing,
And bend through alleys and bounce off other buildings. "

This is my epilogue, this is my goodbye for this bad bad year! this are the main characters on this episode of my life... thank you all for being in my life. Thank God for you all...



Goodbye... Goodbye, My december sun is setting... It will all be alright.

Rootless tree - Damien Rice

What I want from you is empty your head
But they say be true, don't stay in your bed
We do what we need to be free
And it leans on me like a rootless tree

What I want from us is empty our minds
But we fade the forests, fracture the tide
We go blind when we needed to see
And it leans on me, like a rootless...

So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all you didn't do
I said bleed it, bleed it, bleed it
There's nothing in you
And do you hate me, hate me, hate me, hate me so much
That you can't let me out, let me out, let me out
Of hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out

What I want from this
Is to learn to let go
No not of you
Of all that is old
Killers re-invent and believe
And it leans on me, like a rootless...

So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all you didn't do
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothin' anyway
And did you hate me, hate me, hate me, hate me so much
That you can't let me out, let me out, let me out
It's hell when you're around

So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothing anyway
And do you hate me, hate me, hate me, hate me so much
That you can't let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out