Dear Diary, How do I put this across without sounding pretentious and unexpectedly greedy?

I know that, I haven't actually done much, but...

There much be something different about me from other guys... (: Well, I hope you find your answer soon.

I'll be here always, Joshua.



The Resolution - "Jack's Mannequin"

There’s a lot that I don’t know
There’s a lot that I’m still learning
When I think I’m letting go
I find my body it’s still burning

And you hold me down
And you got me living in the past
Come on and pick me up
Somebody clear the wreckage from the blast

I’m alive
And I don’t need a witness
You know that I survived
I’m not looking for forgiveness
Yeah I just need light
I need a light in the dark as I search for the Resolution

And the bars are finally close
So I try living in the moment
Till the moment it just froze
And I felt sick and so alone

I could hear the sound
Of your voice still ringing in my ear
I’m going underground
But you’ll find me anywhere I fear

I’m alive
And I don’t need a witness
You know that I survived
I’m not looking for forgiveness
Yeah I just need light
I need a light in the dark as I search for the Resolution
I need a light in the dark as I search for the Resolution

Resolution
Resolution

And you hold me down
Yeah, you hold me down

I’m alive
And I don’t need a witness
To know that I survived
I’m not looking for forgiveness

I’m alive
And I don’t need a witness
To know that I survived
I’m not looking for forgiveness
Yeah I just need light
I need a light in the dark as I search for the Resolution
I need a light in the dark as I search for the Resolution