I am so tired now, I have a major headaches and I skip that aspirin because someone told me its bad for me and I promised I'll try to cut down, and though I am dying here but those pills stayed in the box...

I think I just needed sleep and rest, and somehow I think I might be missing someone bad enough for days. ): I really wish I could pretend on but I feel kinda weak and it's bad enough trying hard not to stare into her eyes... Ohwells.

I went to school to collect my car today after I lent it to Chuan for his Anniversary with Joyce last night and I saw Yong doing up a mixed tape for the girl he is going after, for the first time he looked really hopeful and throughout the week I have been helping him and teaching him all the possible sweet stuff he can do for Hui Wen, HAH! I feel like some love guru mans, and the mixed tape idea? Was my idea, HAHA! I told him to draw up something neutral on the disc like a big "HELLO" on it to package the gift. Of course after all my advice the girl agreed to go out with him today! Whhooo!! I feel so pro like with courting girls. :P HAHA! but seriously my main principle to him was that he should be sensitive to a lady's feeling and respect whatever decisions she made. Yup. So guys out there, take out a pen and paper and start writing. But I don't know why, non of those sheets ever work for me. The one I've fallen for don't have the same feeling towards me. HAHA! Seriously I don't know why, I feel so loser... HAHA!

Maybe because I ain't the nicest guy around her... Yup, I don't know?


Anyway I hope that Yong can find someone he can be vulnerable to and show all his troubles and Joy to luh :D

Anyways, Mom came for service today after what happened early this week. I sincerely pray for her to come back to the lord who cares ever so much for her. (: details bit personal so I shan't blog about it, Yup, Amen.


Sigh~ In pain, in pain!! Tooth ache, headache, body ache, sunburnt.

Ohh!! and Charlene is really "argh!!!" I mean Xavier is really nice but I can't breath man!!!! Seriously!!!!! I just wanna shout and scream!!! Argh!! She is soooo!!! Sigh... I cannot take it man, now when she sms me to go out I don't reply her straight I just reply Xavier to see if he's going if not I won't..! I was like mugging overnight the other day and I got her sms telling me to watch a movie after my paper which I will be damn shag and all? Then I didn't reply because I was mugging and all and she knew I am studying overnight and she still asked me out for movie? I only replied in the morning after my paper and when she receive my sms she woke up and call me right away and scolded me that I didn't reply her sms immediately? and I told her I was studying she said that I was lying because on my facebook I uploaded some Polaroid photos I took with Chuan and Yong. She said I look like I didn't study and I was playing the whole night, I was freaking pissed because I really studied damn freaking hard? and Since when I need a girl to report to? I'm not even her boyfriend or what man, and if you who are reading this is thinking in your mind that I lead her on? I can seriously say a straight FREAKING NO! man, I didn't reply her directly as said earlier I always refer back to Xavier man. I can't tell you how pissed I am. She's so argh! Bu tong shi!!! Then today she asked me out for dinner and I told her already I try she sms me asking me what time I end church and that she knows that my car is not with me so she wanted to come down to pick me up? And asked me where is my church without me even telling her if I wanted to go?!! I was damn pissed man, I told my bro, I can take a bus what am I, needy and all now?! or better still I haven't even agreed. And when I was eating with my mom she kept calling me and smsing me if I am done with my stuff when I already told her I am eating with my mom? I mean it's seriously damn insensitive? I mean I only get to eat with my mom once a week? and today she's in church thats why I get to eat dinner with her? I mean, I wanna scream till no sound comes out and she learnt her lesson. I can't believe I actually had such charm on this girl man, I mean I don't mind saying man, She's interested in me, Damn interested I can honestly say, If not then I really don't know what is this man. Gosh! Give me some air... Xavier's okay though, he's damn nice. Sigh~ Headache!!



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Maybe I begin to miss you because I find rest in your presence ... I know I shouldn't though,

another week of wait here I come...




Ungodly Hour - The Fray

Don't talk, don't say a thing
Cause your eyes they tell me more than your words
Don't go, don't leave me now
Cause they say the best way out is through

And I am short on words knowing what's occurred
She begins to leave because of me

Her bag is now much heavier
I wish that I could carry her
But this is our ungodly hour

I know you're leaving now
Cause I held on to my way tightly
Stay still until you know
Tomorrow finds the best way out is through

And I am short on words knowing what's occurred
She begins to leave because of me

Her bag is now much heavier
I wish that I could carry her
But this is our ungodly hour


Miss you...