Yet another sleepless night has dawn upon my tired soul. When fury fills my mind and its keeping me from surrendering into my sleep, shots of photographic memory hits me like a heavy brick and suddenly I find myself not breathing at all. It's like I'm wearing this facade' on the outside and I had about enough of pretending to be important, pretending to be ignorant, and pretending to have peace with myself. It's a mask that no one wants to wear and I've somehow find myself sinking into this facade and it will hurt if I even try to yank it out from my face. I think I'm way over my head and maybe, just maybe I celebrated too early.

Perhaps I should wear this mask and brave it through this storm and hope that when everything is over It would flake away like how it all ended with a smile.

I can't sleep, I can't dream tonight, I'm just a man who yearns to be himself trapped in a memory that I no longer belong to, I need to find the strength to break away. Maybe I'll burn maybe I'll discard those empty promises that I once made so that I can finally vindicate from all these blames.

Dropped a rock into the water and it sinks, throw a dream high enough it'd fall back into its place. Gravity? It's working against me, twice as much ain't twice as good. I understand that now, maybe I'll close, maybe I'll break, maybe I'll learn to find out what it is to be me again... I need to be.

"It's okay Josh, just let it go... I'm a man, I take what I can."