After a few days of dreaded emptiness I've finally found something that is of worth to blog about. I've come to realize that there are things in my life that I can't change and I guess along the way I forgotten the fact and I was on my way to another endless route. I was really frustrated with myself with all the things that was going on around me, I don't suppose I could be any stronger because those are the things that were important to me. But I just pray, in the loo, in my car, in the concert, in my event, in every possible situation I pray. To me, that was the only thing I can do because to me there was literally a dead end in front of me and every step I made just marks another bump on the wall.

Sunday: I learnt that though sometimes one put in much effort and emotion into something that they strongly believe in, it's never too late to make a u turn and walk another path though it may be damn hard but a moment of pain than a life time of meaningless race.

Then I learnt that though things don't always turn out the way we always hoped for but we should always find the better part of anything and not beat ourselves up for it. He turns even the worst situation into something beautiful.

:Courtesy of my awesome God.

Okay, today I received a email from someone which I think is really meaningful and probably encouraging to some.

We can never overcome our past, we only outgrow them. By that I mean we only become stronger by the day and as much as we want to we can never get over it, we just move on. I seriously believe that as human we can only handle a certain degree of disappointment but one thing encouraging is that we become stronger with each mistake we made. Thus making it a milestone for the future? Yup!

To be honest, I don't know if tomorrow comes I will feel all normal and free from all the past mistakes but I know I have to try and be strong. As much as I hate to? I have to. But I won't know, if I can. I just won't know.

"every time you smile, I just grow stronger. Thank you potong! (: