I woke up to another four aspirin morning, frustrations fill my head with the knowledge that I'm still pretty much the same broken self as when I left for my trip. Was I expecting too much out from myself? Or am I just too overly sensitive to misunderstood what might not even be there. If I just step out of the lens of this scope for a day, will I recover from this sick cycle?

It sucks to know that all your friends only belong to the online society, It's funny huh? Nowadays you don't talk you write to communicate which is what I'm doing now, irony people don't talk they just speak, Maybe I'm just too discourage thats all. Suicide? Never in my plan so I apologize if I sounded like I needed a death wish. And My words, honestly I think, I tried, I just cannot pretend to be happy? I mean I don't enjoy being this way everyday, waking up knowing that the more I see the less I know? And that everything that I ever held on to is being drifted away slowly as soon as I begin to think that everything is okay? But it's not? Comes to a point where You try every possible way to change, to walk, to pick yourself up and smile. But the cracks just propagates deeper and wider till you can literally feel your spirit falling apart. Honestly, my blog is my ranting place? but deep inside I wanna fill it with thoughts that are positively worth remembering years down the road but I just don't know how?

"Stop and look away, when the very thing that is killing you is the sight."



Oh well, whatever, nevermind. I'm sure, I'll be just fine. . .



This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What you need, what you need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...