
posted : Wednesday, June 17, 2009
title : Food for thoughts?
If Barbie is so popular, Why do we have to buy all her friends?
This was totally hilarious and downright dumb in a way, saw it on a magazine the other day when I was looking for inspiration for my magazine's editor's note. Now that my magazine's all done, I need to find my focus back to study for my papers. I need strength to pick up the pen and do it, but till now I'm still clueless on what to study for. Sometimes I wonder, did I spent my time fruitfully? or was I wasting it all on something which is less important and practical, seems like I've playing this whole holiday and yet nothing was done. MST is just one week away and I'm doom for sure if I don't start right now. I need to find myself! I cannot rely on material item to get by! One problem I face is that though I have tons of friends I still cannot fully commit to them, in a way that I be damn honest and show my true self, Sarah once told me that I need to be more "down to earth" and I guess I spent years trying to figure out what Down to earth means to me, and now I see. I wish I saw it earlier but now that I've lost everything thats ever make sense to me. I think I'm ready to see if I can change to be a better person. Though It's still scary to come down from where I am, where nobody can guess my feelings and (gosh, I hate this) my poker face? And yeah. But still I've got to try, gonna muster every confidence I have and cannon ball into the water! Anyway, thanks to those who were being really awesome and always being there when I least expected it. My beloved, Edmund Chan Wei Hao, Hao Lian de Hao. Listening, Aik Choo Accepting, Huiru Caring, Jia Ling Last but not least, The most I don't know how to put it? Amazing, loud, funny, scary? , Vanessa Yong' ![]() She's been there for me since day one and I don't know how we can click this way, this silly 15 year old girl who refuses to let me emo thus making me concentrate on all her adorable shenanigans. So Just wanna say a big thank you to all of them and may the coming days you'll be able to see a stronger side of me which I am beneath it all. *Smile* Now that I rest in the knowledge that Summer is happier with her life, I can finally smile and just thank God for everything. I'm leaving for overseas trip today afternoon, I don't know when I'll be back. Really need a time out for myself to get away from the city. If I never find my way home. . . I'll remember where our love was found. |