I guess nobody really knows what kind of emptiness we face every time we wake from our sleep?

I am Joshua's totally lack of motivation.

It is 2 hours before school and we're already awake, I wish I could have slept more but he just can't bring himself to sleep any further. It seems like Joshua is always killing his sleeping time thinking that all that time could be use to accomplish something.

Lunch has never look so appealing to me before because Josh just stopped eating all together, but still after we sat down his feet will somehow mis-function and yeah in a blink of an eye lunch/dinner time is over and if I'm lucky enough instant noodles is a blessing.

I am Joshua's inflamed sense of rejection.

Saw him talking on the phone last night and seems like it that nothing he can say was right, followed by the usual screams and the awkward moments of silence between the one on the other line. He seems to be in distraught and no one was there for him, not even God. It was as though God wanted him to learn something through his silence.

His phone rang in the middle of the night and I took a peek at it and it seems to me that I have seen those words somewhere, somehow two years ago. If I'm not wrong it was the part that says "we're better off as friends" and ended with a smile. I suppose they don't really know how those words could break his world apart and by morning he was already gone. I can't seems to find him though he is physically here.

I am Joshua's broken heart


I am Joshua's complete lack of surprise

I am Joshua's wasted life

It seems like he is waiting for something important to happen? Waiting for his phone to ring. Nothing can move him the way they all did before. Days are just not the same. . .

I am Joshua, the man who can be move...



And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...