Dear Mr Screwtape A.k.a "Satan",
Is this how you play the game? You put in me in a situation that I am suppose to believe that good will happen when seemingly I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Is this how I always fall? You put thoughts in my head telling me that I'm not worth anything and that taking faith is a foreign task so now I am misunderstood again, I try to change or to be strong but I guess I'm not patience enough therefore giving you a chance to cause me to jump into any conclusion thus assuming the worst.

I think its sad because I guess somehow deep down I, too want to be appreciated and recognize by someone important to me, but you saw that weakness in me and told me that I have been forgotten so I embarked on a journey to put on a strong front and promise I will not feel any regret. But turns out I was wrong again. I should have waited for a day or two?

So dear Screwtape, thanks for making me look like a fool again and honestly speaking I wasn't on the winning end from the very start so, it's really okay.

So, Dear Lord. Grant me the strength to withstand any temptation and the faith to look further and to see the bigger picture. You know how your son, I am like. If the issue don't even mean anything he will not even give a slightest attention to it, So if that should separate me from being strong and hopeful again I guess I don't think its accurate because given that situation only faith can keep the hope alive. . . And I happen to have little faith. But I'm still learning. So Lord, this is Joshua. Really need that strength from you. Amen.

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost?
I've just had the craziest week,
Like a party bag of lies, booze and then deceit.
And I don't know why I want to voice this out loud,
It's therapeutic somehow.

So I'm moving to New York cos I've got problems with my sleep,
And we're not the same and I will wear that on my sleeve.
So I'm moving to New York cos I've got issues with my sleep,
Looks like Christmas came early, Christmas came early for me.

I put one foot forward and ended up thirty yards back.
And am I losing touch or am I just completely off the track?
And I don't know why I want to voice this out loud,
It's therapeutic somehow.

So I'm moving to New York cos I've got problems with my sleep,
And we're not the same and I will wear that on my sleeve.
So I'm moving to New York cos I've got issues with my sleep,
Looks like Christmas came early, Christmas came early for me.

So I'm moving to New York cos I've got problems with my sleep,
And we're not the same and I will wear that on my sleeve.
So I'm moving to New York cos I've got issues with my sleep,
Looks like Christmas came early, Christmas came early for me