Finally, It's been too long. Too long to remember why I feel this way. I guess nothing could replace the deep sense of emptiness only for me to fill this half filled cup all over again once more.

The world is safe today, :P I like to think it that way when I'm not feeling down, the world is secure today, quiet and my sorrows has not been more vague before. I don't really know what I was fighting for. . .

I have to say one week without Nessa, is quite down. She is like the Joshua when he was still 15. (: Cannot have dinner last sat but well, shall see how this week. Thank you Silly, if you are reading this. You cheer me up! Thank God for you! (:

And Today was a fateful day, I know that something's wrong with my body? I think?? I coughed blood in my showers, and its like bloody messy, I didn't tell my family members. Because they might be worried or what? Wait till something really happen first. and in the mean time I keep my fingers crossed.

School is not bad today, and I try to recover? Because It sucks being sick. Life is like a 3 PLY tissue. You cannot just use one ply to clear you mucus you need all 3 to be effective. Hahah! Use too much tissue this month. *Cough Cough*

My chest hurts abit when I breath.

Just came back from a sushi buffet with the church guys? It was damn hilarious? Ever got drunk with food? Like you get damn full and you are trying not to laugh too hard? And you just can't help it because the simple effort of preventing is just hilarious enough for your stomach to hurt and you just can't stop. I was the comedian of the time. Hahaha! I'm glad those guys enjoyed my jokes. Haha! It was great fun! Thanks Edmund! Don't know why? But he treats me damn nice. Thank God for him.

And I am going to do my homework now?? I believe it's called tutorial! Hahah! OFF YOU GO THEN!

The build-up lasted for days
Lasted for weeks
Lasted too long

Our hero withdrew
When there was two
He could not choose one
So there was none

Worn into the vaguely announced
Worn into the vaguely announced

The spinning top made a sound like a train across the valley
Fading, oh so quiet, but constant 'til it passed
Over the ridge into the distances, written on your ticket

To remind you where to stop
And when to get off...