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posted : Sunday, November 16, 2008
title : I can't stand to fly, I'm not that naive
"Oh, all that I know,
There's nothing here to run from, 
'Cos yeah, everybody here's got somebody to lean on." -  Coldplay "Don't Panic"


So much have happened this week, I had my fair share of emodity and happiness. Just want to use this time to Thank God for the helping me get through this week without a scratch. I'm still pretty far from where he is but I know that from wherever my Lord is, he is still able to carry me through. Thank God, really. After the wake I left for school, I don't know why but I know that God is helping me because when I told my lecturer that I spent a morning at the crematorium supporting my friend she seems pretty open to the idea of me getting an LOA, So I can get away with an absentee. It was mentally exhausting for me but after the wake I felt a sense of release, I guess it marks another chapter in my life. 

As much as I tried not to think about it I kept dreaming about it, I dreamt that I was at the peaceful crematorium looking up in the huge blue skies, and I start to realize that on the other side of the country there are life, joy, celebrations, excitement and yet from where I am there is only relief and grief. It scares me to know that both death and life are co-existing to one another.  Also, I dreamt that I was in a town so dark as though the rain's approaching. There on a small hill lies dozens of dead bodies, corpse hanging around. All mutilated. I have been haunted by this dream till today. Its the reason I wake up in the middle of the night panting. I just pray that I'll be okay. 

But after all I had a great week, thank God for all my wonderful friends that God has put in my life, supporting me in every single way. School, church, Pastor. I don't know what to say but I really appreciate everyone of them. I hope they know who they are after reading this. So I suppose that is my week. I hope that in the days to come everybody will be healthy and strong. Amen.
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