Have you ever felt sooo much fear in your entire life before? Yes, I have.

My VAN Broke Down again, Crossing my fingers didn't help either.

All thanks to the fact that all things in the univers Wears and TEARs.

So Here I am. Screwed again, Broken inside and tired.

Sucks!

Emotionally drained.

Can't feel shit.

Can't see shit.

Can't tell.

Wanna Jump off of this metal buliding of mine.

Sucks.

Not Emo but more of a demolitional.

Self-distructively.

Not myself,


Sigh~ I was trying to think of all the negative emotions that I can think of but none tells of how I am feeling right.

Shit. Perhaps it is what I fear of the most. . .

The need for Jesus's grace.

It's so near to me but so hard to accept it.

Freely given.

but still not driven.

FORGIVEN?

YES.

Thank you lord ever again. You are so kind to me. thank you.

I have learned to see myself through the very eyes of everyone, and I understand that there are people who just want to get the best of me.

Some who wants me dead,

Some who loves me.

Some who fears me.

other who just can't stand me.

SOme who is just insecure about me.

Some who love to hate me.

But what about ME?

Dear Lord, I am lost. I am lost. . . I truely am.

TEACH ME, Again.

AMEN!