Public Service Annoucment.

I don't know how and what to say but I guess I owe my friends who is worrying about me over at the other side of town. Namely. Janan, Junwei, Eugene and Eddie who has yet know what really happened to me.

Not a usual sad post but instead of swearing and cursing I shall start with my Feelings.

Alright here goes. . .
Firstly It all started with Me being spot by this girl on the train being with you-know-who, doing not a single you-know-what. But I must declare that at the time of what they see it as dishonesty I was doing nothing that could cause another human being to think that we're not legitimate. I could've been with another female being or another shemale but they wouldn't give a thought about it. It's because of the mere sight of this formula. A + B = Orh hor!! anyway. . . that was pretty much on one aspect of what really happened to me and I'm about to tell you.

You know me, sometimes a mere fact to show that I care when I really do is so hard to comprehand by another. So when I realise that I wasn't regular in my tithing I knew I was doom. I cannot say I couldn't care less about whatever God has blessed to me or a sucky life that I was and still am in right now. I dont do that sh*t. But I guess Its not enough thoughts put into the importance of tithing. I felt bad because I was doing quite well these months and I shall say that now I'm literally left with nothing but a Pocket filled with rotten tissue and a butterfly just to keep me positive.

So I shall start with what really happened to me. It wasn't something of a shock to me when I first learned about it. It was the one and only thing that church would ever talked about with me. It was Her. So with the light heart I listen to whatever they've got to say. . . Principles after priciple as though it was a catholic school I'm in. But I must say I'm really okay with it.

'You know because of your iregularity in tithing and you know relationship issue You might have to be prepare to stop serving'

'Hmm... I get it. so when do I stop?'

'*ignoring what I said* Take it as a break for yourself and take this time really consider what could've been done and to really get back up as a stronger person.'

'I understand where you are coming from so do I still have practice this week?'

'No'

So there are of course still more to what the conversation lies. But I shall only elaborate on those that would really mean something to those who actually gives a sh*t about Joshua. So Guys I know you were trying to make me feel better by telling me that they have not decide on the actual arrangement. Thanks but I must say I already know that it was probably much decided in their heart, mind whatever you like to call it. But rest assured that It will jolly well serves as a break to me and I will not waste my time getting affected about it.

'So will I still be playing for C.C tomorrow?'

'Oh! I was looking for you'

' My handphone is d.a.t.e. Dead.'

' Ok, No. you will not be playing tomorrow I've told them.'

'Same principle. . . Your tithing and you were not being honest'

'I dont think dishonesty would be a word to use in this situation'

'*Seemingly forgotten what she just said* WHat dishonesty?'

'What you just said about not being honest??'

'WHAT? Why dont you tell me about what's not honest in this case?'

'You just said I was not being honest'

'You know what we will talk about it tomorrow ok'

'But I really want to know what you just said?'

'We will talk about it tomorrow'
*This conversation is over*

SO being in a train with a girl and just nice it was someone special to me was an act of dishonesty? Mind you WAS.

Hmm. . . It took me alot just to blog it out. It is mainly meant for Junwei, Janan, Eugene and Edmund. SO yup I should urge readers of this post if there's anything you dont know about what I have just said dont be tempted to speculate please for goodness sake ask me.

So guys for the last part. What really happened to me: Due to what I just said, I was taken out of my music ministry. Also taken out of my C.C ministry. Should I be able to get back up again I'm sorry to say guys its all up to you all to support me now.