Latecomers, It's been Months since i last did an entry... as always.

It's 6 in the morning, i was just wondering why i cant get to sleep. Maybe somehow, someway I missed someone. I suppose people dont really want to talk about what they already have in life that i think makes us take everything for granted.

My Life is good. Just bit' messy. I dont really know where to start and when it's gonna ends.

God give me power. Strength or rather... Thank you.

Did i woke up at the wrong side of my bed? Cause the people I know are just not the same anymore.

I'm tired but no actual rest granted:

SP sent it a note to say, No can do.

I feel insecure for the first time in many years, to be honest i long to be the same like the rest but i find myself just as different as the way i started out.

People tried to understand me, but i denial it. I hate it when you say "I know you"

To ask myself about the failures in my life would be silly because there's not really a failure yet, just tons of mistakes and misunderstanding.

I wanna be left alone for awhile, thank you.

Her heart says " You dont know me,(in a way) you dont even care"

It pains me to see you cry dear.

I'm not ok and you know it.

I know you from my heart.

Thats all I know.

That's just some of my negative feelings, got to get it out sometimes. But on top of all I'm just glad that you're doing great my less than 3.

Hope God knows that he's still at the top of the list...

Amen.

They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that' s fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't ewait, I can't wait, I can't wait...
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know...