Favourite colour: White
Favourite food: Mom's Kitchan
Favourite movie: Alot.
Favourite sport: Swim
Favourite day of the week: Ice-Cream Day
Favourite ice-cream: Chocolate Fudge(only ate it once) *YuM*
Favourite TV shows: Grey's anatomy
Current mood: Happy, tired and Sad
Current taste: Too much to state.
Current clothes: School Uniform (damn!)
Current desktop: Not too sure but i think it's a bio profile of a female body
Current toenail colour: healthy pink.
Current time: 1231PM
Current annoyance: My stupid mouth!
Current thoughts: A few girls?, a trip to china, sat@7, my friends.
First best friend:Not yet have any
First crush: Whoa~ whoa~ i think its the female doctor who slap ma ass and made me cry when i first reach planet earth.
First movie: Fin's stone with my mom
First lie: It's not me!
First music: Cantonese pop
Last cigarette:
Last drink: mountain Dew
Last car ride:
Last crush:Sabastian's Nissan Latio
Last phone call: James, asking bout' shoes
Last CD played:The Killers
Have you ever dated one of your best friends:Erm...Well?
Have you ever broken the law: Positive
Have you ever been arrested: Positive too.
Have you ever skinny dipped: Hell yeah!
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: Don't think so

alright that's all.

Favourite colour: White
Favourite food: Mom's Kitchan
Favourite movie: Alot.
Favourite sport: Swim
Favourite day of the week: Ice-Cream Day
Favourite ice-cream: Chocolate Fudge(only ate it once) *YuM*
Favourite TV shows: Grey's anatomy
Current mood: Happy, tired and Sad
Current taste: Too much to state.
Current clothes: School Uniform (damn!)
Current desktop: Not too sure but i think it's a bio profile of a female body
Current toenail colour: healthy pink.
Current time: 1231PM
Current annoyance: My stupid mouth!
Current thoughts: A few girls?, a trip to china, sat@7, my friends.
First best friend:Not yet have any
First crush: Whoa~ whoa~ i think its the female doctor who slap ma ass and made me cry when i first reach planet earth.
First movie: Fin's stone with my mom
First lie: It's not me!
First music: Cantonese pop
Last cigarette:
Last drink: mountain Dew
Last car ride:
Last crush:Sabastian's Nissan Latio
Last phone call: James, asking bout' shoes
Last CD played:The Killers
Have you ever dated one of your best friends:Erm...Well?
Have you ever broken the law: Positive
Have you ever been arrested: Positive too.
Have you ever skinny dipped: Hell yeah!
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: Don't think so

alright that's all.

oh well, got so bored that i decided to write a love song. damn i was thinking of someone when i wrote it, haha! need some inspiration i hope. anyway haven't really come up with a tune and chords, oh well.


Waiting

Looking at the way you smile
Dont know why it still feels the same inside
Ive been trying to reach out to you
It gets harder every time

Maybe Im just scared but with the way I am
Im not going anywhere tonight
Baby Im afraid
Oh, wont you stay by my side tonight

I am waiting here, dont you know?
Waiting for something Im not even sure of
Baby Im always here, just waiting for you to come dropping by
Well theres always a pair of arm that will catch you when you fall

They say that time passes faster when you re enjoying it
Maybe thats what makes me a dreamer
Cause I just cant get enough of you

I am still waiting here, dont you know?
I cant express it, just hope you feel it
Its stupid, I know but how do you decide
Thats just love I guess

If two are really in love
When do you get to a point?
When enough is enough?

Never, cause Im still in love with you

Its 12 plus and i just reach home from work, yesterday i reach home at 3plus for my job too. i'm down on fatigue already then this week is so pack with stuff:

Wed(afternoon): I was suppose to go CMPB for my pre-enlistee medical checkup but a chairman of a particular company from Germany that produce precision equipment are coming over to singapore to sign a MOU(M? of understanding) dont know whats that also, but i was selected to go give a talk on how we are using their product in our school so tomorrow(tues) i will be going down to the precision lab to touch up on my knowledge and my speech. But anyway i was force to change my checkup date to next week.

Wed(morning): My teacher wants to all the parents of those people who is going to china. Suppose to tell all our parents what we are doing there, etc etc... which is super dumb i must say, my parents are proud but they dont realy wanna know whats our agenda there??? but Mr Tan insist that he must give a the parents a very clear picture of what is going on? stupid! Mr foo thinks its dumb too la. because if anything happen mr tan is not gonna get it what? why is he so "Kan Chong" about it? my guess is he wants to use this time to boast about something, what i dont know? well~ i have to wait till wed to know yeah?

Yesterday Kim let me try on his Honda VRC, It was damn cool! and damn heavy too. but after tuning his VRC can hit 90km/h in it's first gear?! damn i can't wait for my class2b licence! i'll have a KTM 200 for a start? yup!

should sleep soon, tomorrow is gonna be a busy day holmes!

A little of my thoughts now:

By myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I'm defenseless
and to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go then I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to
Don't you (know)
I can't tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can't seem to convince myself (why)
I'm stuck on the outside (x2)
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all to much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
I can't hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It's all to much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking...

Dad is now screaming his head off, and i wonder when has he not. Peace and quiet is not what i need now, it feels like with a busy job all the volume off my world is suddenly tune down.

I once looked at someone and say to myself what a prideful man but i have pride too, so whats so detestable about others?

I like to believe in whats false rather than the some truth cause in a lie i see through a not so perfect human just like myself, the insecure.

I like to believe in all my day dreams which people keep telling me that all has no meaning to, but it tells me of what i'm really thinking about.

I like to believe in my life cause it reminds me that nothing is perfect in this world and i shouldn't try so hard.

I like to believe that we are all different, don't tell me that because you reacted in a certain way i should too because i don't expect that out of anybody.

I like to believe in the simple joy in my life, it tells me that even without anything to offer to the world there's still a God who is actually joy.

I have been very short tempered nowadays, maybe i should start counting every single blessing in my life to see that no man is an island, i can't be alone and i never was.

Dad just came in and scolded me for being ignorance of whatever is going on but its all ok, I know i've tried.

Children are taught to hate, parents just couldn't wait
Some are rich and some are poor, others will just suffer more
Have you ever been ashamed and felt society try to keep you down?
I begin to watch things change and see them turn around
Turn around, they'll try to keep you down
Turn around, turn around
Don't drag me down
Ignorance like a gun in hand, reach out to the promised land
Your history books are full of lies, media-blitz gonna dry your eyes
Have you ever been afraid, and felt society try to keep you down?
I begin to watch things change and see them turn around
Turn around, they'll try to keep you down
Turn around, turn around
Don't drag me down
*guitar solo*
Ignorance like a gun in hand, reach out to the promised land
Your history books, are full of lies, media-blitz gonna dry your eyes
You're eighteen, wanna be a man
Your granddaddy's in the Ku Klux Klan
Taking two steps foward, and four steps back
Gonna go to the White House and paint it black...
Turn around, they'll try to keep you down
Turn around
Turn around, they'll try to keep you down
Turn around, turn around
Don't drag me down

it's amazing how i can blog two days straight...? and not can caught during lesson. ha!
Anyway i shall blog since everyday is a new day or should i say different? oh well, yesterday teacher told me that i will most probably be going china for an exchange program? it's kindda cool consider i have only been overseas not more than 5 times all my life... I remember those two memorable experience,

Malaysia was way cool? i got nothing against them, just dont feel secure over there considering the corruption rate there? been there 2 times, Yup.

And Pulau Ubin.(overseas?)

(pause for 5mins)
(stone look)

Overseas?

haha! nevermind la. anyway dont wanna count my egg before the chicken is born... have to go through some interview, should be able to nail it... i hope.

You know, im really starting to wonder if my life is gonna carry on this way.
I'm really very tired of whatever is going on with my life. I feel like a man without a sense of purpose, insecure because of my lack in confidence. I dont know why? it's like after working at rivi's place my self-confidence has been shattered, i became so self-conscious of my own fault. sigh~ I want myself back!
Going back to starbucks can be an easy task but as i went through the whole bar test i found myself feeling so weird or should i say shy? to talk to people and i cant seems to enjoy it the way i did last time. Pray for myself, I know i can get the groove back. God.

What i got

Early in the mornin' rising to the street
light me up that cigarette and I'll strap shoes on my feet
got to find the reason, reason things went wrong
got to find the reason why my money's all gone
I got a dalmation and I can still get high
I can play the guitar like a mother fuckin' riot

well, life is short so love the one you got
'cuz you might get run over or ya might get shot
never start static I just get it off my chest
never had to battle with my bullet proof vest
take a small example... take a ti-ti-tip from me
take all of your money and give it to charity
life is what I got it's with in my reach
and the Sublime style still straight from Long Beach
It all comes back to you your gonna get what you deserve
try and test that, your bound to get served
love's what I got don't start a riot
you feel it when the dance gets hot..hot
lovin' is what I got I said remember that
(x3)
lovin is what i got

Why I don't cry when my dog runs away
I don't get angry at the bills I have to pay
I don't get angry when my mom smokes pot
hits the bottle and goes right to the rock
fuckin' and fightin' it it's all the same
livin' with Louie dogs' the only way to stay sane
let the lovin' let the lovin' come back to me
lovin' is what I got I said remember that x7
lovin' is what I got I got I got I got

(Bradley)
turn off that broth...so that's..see but..no we're done man

Man! I seriously have to stop grabbing the wrong handphone man! because my mom's Hp and mine are the same model and i just happpen to be running late everyday.
Oh well, Having some thinking skill lesson again. haha! was suppose to go online to do some learning but here i am... haha. teacher is right behind me? she dont really care i guess...

I went for my bar test yesterday at bugis starbucks, I think i screw up abit but i pass anyway? because there's really no point in failing me you see, just give me a week and I'll be back.

alright got to go...