Its 12 plus and i just reach home from work, yesterday i reach home at 3plus for my job too. i'm down on fatigue already then this week is so pack with stuff:

Wed(afternoon): I was suppose to go CMPB for my pre-enlistee medical checkup but a chairman of a particular company from Germany that produce precision equipment are coming over to singapore to sign a MOU(M? of understanding) dont know whats that also, but i was selected to go give a talk on how we are using their product in our school so tomorrow(tues) i will be going down to the precision lab to touch up on my knowledge and my speech. But anyway i was force to change my checkup date to next week.

Wed(morning): My teacher wants to all the parents of those people who is going to china. Suppose to tell all our parents what we are doing there, etc etc... which is super dumb i must say, my parents are proud but they dont realy wanna know whats our agenda there??? but Mr Tan insist that he must give a the parents a very clear picture of what is going on? stupid! Mr foo thinks its dumb too la. because if anything happen mr tan is not gonna get it what? why is he so "Kan Chong" about it? my guess is he wants to use this time to boast about something, what i dont know? well~ i have to wait till wed to know yeah?

Yesterday Kim let me try on his Honda VRC, It was damn cool! and damn heavy too. but after tuning his VRC can hit 90km/h in it's first gear?! damn i can't wait for my class2b licence! i'll have a KTM 200 for a start? yup!

should sleep soon, tomorrow is gonna be a busy day holmes!

A little of my thoughts now:

By myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I'm defenseless
and to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go then I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to
Don't you (know)
I can't tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can't seem to convince myself (why)
I'm stuck on the outside (x2)
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all to much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
I can't hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It's all to much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking...