Slowly, but surely this all is coming to an end. You wondered to yourself a thousand and one time what really went wrong? was it too much that I was asking for? You know deep in your heart that every word you said and every thing you do would be so smooth that maybe someday she'll feel it too, but no. So you come to a breaking point and you said lets forget it...

Anger can always takes its toll on you, look at you. You're growing old so young my brother... Its really sad especially you're walking down the street where my sole once laid its presents on. Look at your smile, I know you wanted badly to feel fine, to feel free again but this brutal chain its holding you back... It may seem hard to summon the strength to forget it all but maybe, somehow, someway this is the only chance that you've got to take for a better dawn.

I can see it all in your eyes, that jaded shadow that looms behind your stronger front. I wish that it can be as simple as On/off switch where you're here today, and gone tomorrow. With this incident, it changes everything that your stood for, your faith, trust, hopes and fear... I wish this isn't so

but sometime, a man's got to wake up to find that he really has no one and that life of his own... is no one else's but his Own...

I hope you see the light, I hope you find that strength and hope that could bring you through tomorrow... Dude,

"Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt..." - Incubus

Lift up my eyes to the heavens and pray that God will give you the strength to dance again my friend... Amen*


Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dyin breath of
this love we've been workin on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
so I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
we pulled to many false alarms

We're goin down
and you can see it too
We're goin down
and you know that we're doomed
my dear
we're slow dancing in a burnin room

I was the one you always dreamed of
you were the one i tried to draw
how dare you say it's nothin to me
baby, you're the only light I ever saw

I made the most of all the sadness
you'd be a bitch because you can
you try to hit me just hurt me
so you leave me feelin dirty cuz you can't understand

We're goin down
and you can see it too
We're goin down
and you know that we're doomed
my dear
we're slow dancing in a burnin room

Go cry about it why don't you
Go cry about it why don't you
Go cry about it why don't you

my dear, we're slow dancin in a burnin room
burnin room, burnin room
don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow

don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow

don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow


Be strong Chuan...




Maybe tomorrow will be a better day... This is a sick cycle carousel"







Let me tell you a story about this three good friends. All of them met one another by accident and by chance they came to me at a very strange time of my life...

When boys become men...
When each broken heart eventually mend...
When one of them is broke...
When insecurities takes place...
When failure was the best way to learn...

They were there for me, I couldn't want anything more than two of them. Wanting nothing in return they gave to me. And I am forever grateful, Thank God... Really do.
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For you to notice... - Dashboard Confessional

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you,
Where every single word I said
Would come out insightful or brave, or smooth, or charming
And you'd want to call me..
And I
Would be there every time
You need me;
I'd be there every time..

But for now,
I'll look
So longingly..
Waiting

For you to want me
For you to need me
For you to notice me


"I may not know the best way out at times, or the right words to say at the right place, but I'm just glad that our day was saved by the beauty of his grace... Thank God for you Miss Stout... I'm so glad that everything is better now, I've learnt so much, I hope you see it too... Waiting for you to notice."






My latest experiment, the Cream pasta with Parmesan Cheese as Base. Complete with Basil , Garlic and black pepper as Flavor. Simple but elegant! Ha!


However, its still bit too tasteless to me" oh wells"




Dear Diary.... Sigh~

Nothing...

Realize - Colbie Caillat

Take time to realize that your warmth is crashing down on in.
Take time to realize that I am on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize,
Oh, oh, I'm on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
Take time to realize this all can pass you by.
Didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other oh.

It's not the same.
No, it's never the same,
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me halfway,
If you would meet me halfway,
It can be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder...

Just realize what I just realized,
If you just realize what I just realized... ooh ooh.
Missed out on each other now.
Missed out on each other now.

Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh.




Say a silent prayer, hope that I won't explode screaming at the top of my lung because... HOTMAIL SCREWED UP AGAIN! I CAN'T CHECK MY MAIL AND DO WORK! I HAVE TONS OF ARTICLES TO FINISH AND IT WON'T EVEN LET ME SEND ANY EMAILS!!!

.....Stupid....


Anyway, back to school! back to school! Means, that I have to start studying smart this time. I have so much to do, events, homework and magazine. But I'm happy! HEHE! because I have the best supporter anyone could have! :D

I was just reading out my article the other day, though I thought it was like really distasteful but right after I read it out to myself you gave me a wide smile and told me that its good. I can't believe it either but with that smile as a assurance I was sure that the article is almost done, thanks!! :D

Anyway, Chuan & Yong went for Maths class just now, and the brought me bad news... Yong is officially lost in the topics... Which means, that Chuan will lost... AND me? Will be completely lost on Wednesday which is my Maths tutorial. *SHIVER*

So today, was late for class because I was running some errands in the morning. Stepped into class all covered with sweat. Sat down with my latest classmate, I was like, wow! All girls! SHIT! HAHAH! then I'm a repeat student so naturally I did the report for them with the help of some girls for maths. HAHA! You know, I'm just bad with calculations, HAHA! Anyway feeling slightly cheated, I asked if I could interview them for my article. HEHE! so now I'm officially done with one article with photos!
Ohh! This girl here, her name is ZHAOLIN!!!! I was super shock when I hand in the report! I was like "WHOS ZHAOLIN??!?!!!" then she jumped out from her chair la! she's like "me... (O O") HAHAHA!! Because Zhaolin is a unique name la, all my life I've only known one Zhaolin and now a China girl! HHAAH!! Not bad eh, Miss Neo, you're a quarter China girl also!! HEHEH! Ah Gong is from CHINA! Same class as Zhaolin, interesting!

Honestly, this semester has been rather demoralizing for me, because Chuan and Yong is of a different class from me, I hope I won't miss out of their life man. It's like everytime I see them, I'm just super happy la! HAHA! *Gay abit* without them school like is Lost man! HAHA! both of them are like the anchor that holds me in place man. They look out for me like a brother would do, I mean seriously just thank God for them so much! :D Shall catch up with both of them soon! Like since school reopen only manage to talk to Chuan. Yong hurt his leg, so abit hard to make him stay back after school as he needs to see a physicist for them. So wells, we'll see how it goes then.

This is piece about the best day I've ever had.

I think you know how I feel
When the moon shines above us
As Waves crashes into the shore and the breeze so strong I felt as though I'm flying away into the ocean but you were there holding me with your glance and I can smell the fragrant coming from you as the wind blows it makes me weak on my knees

Honey, you're the Sun that shines in my darkness
you're the rock upon which I stand
and when you're sitting right beside me the time just seems stop for you and me
I could not ask for anything more than this
I need you like the ocean needs its shore

And the lights they reflect from the sea making it looks as though a candle flame dancing for us celebrating a perfect night that meant only for You and I
It is then that I realize that I could never go on without you
You're the strength that assured me when I felt that I couldn't walk on no more
I'm tired but with you I found a reason to stay tall

Your laughter are the most precious, don't blame me for being persistent or just simply jealous HA! It was all because you're precious to me. You can laugh all you want and I would just seat right beside you and rest in the knowledge that you're happy because of me... Thank you for everything, Hands down it was the best day I've ever had.

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Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep.
This air is blessed, you share with me.
This night is wild, so calm and dull.
These hearts, they race from self-control.
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine.
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

The words are hushed, let's not get busted.
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered;
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"Hey, did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close,
They can't hear, so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember.
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair,
That you twirled in your fingers.
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late.
And this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet and the gate was locked,
So I jumped it and I let you in,
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist,
And you kissed me like you meant it,
And I knew that you meant it.
That you meant it, that you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.




NO!!!! SCHOOL WORK SUCKS! ALL MY SUBS ARE LITERALLY MATH, MATHS AND MORE MATHS! DEAR GOD, GIVE ME WISDOM & AND THIS THING CALLED STRENGTH TO SCORE WELL THIS TIME! CAN'T REALLY CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE BUT THESE BOOKS THAT ARE SET BEFORE ME?

WELL, I GOT TO GO MUG A LITTLE NOW. . .

"It gets a little harder without you around"




I can literally feel the chaos around me, I don't think I'll try to pretend.

"Perhaps Vampires is abit strong, but..." - Arctic Monkeys

Well I've seen your eyes as they fix on me
What is he doing? What on earth's the plan? Has he got one?
You'd better give me some pointers
Since you are the big rocket launcher and I'm just the shotgun

Well I ain't got no dollar signs in my eyes
That might be a surprise but it's true
That I'm not like you and I don't want your advice
Or your praise or to move in the ways you do
And i never will.

Cause all you people are vampires
And all your stories are stale
And though you pretend to stand by us
I know you're sure that we'll fail

Well I've seen your eyes as they fix on me
Full of confusion
Your snarl is just so condescending
Try to explain that we're onto a win
If you feel we get in
Near recoups what we're spending

He says, I can't believe that you drove all that way
Well how much did they pay ya? How much did they pay ya?
You'd've been better to stay round our way
Thinking 'bout things but not actually doing a thing

Cause all you people are vampires
And all your stories are stale
And though you pretend to stand by us
I know you're sure that we'll fail.

Cause all you people are vampires
And all your stories are stale
And though you pretend to stand by us
I know you're sure that we'll fail.

Cos all you people are vampires!